ANOTHER GREAT SEMESTER....GETTING CLOSER TO MY GOAL ONE SEMESTER AT A TIME!!!!

Thank God for another great semester of hard work and rewarded effort. I cannot believe its over. I am having a hard time adjusting to just a few hundred things to do without studying. Well not really. I do have some things to complete. I will be preparing for my next set of classes with (yep u guessed it) reviewing concepts and reading ahead of the class start date. Looking for A's if I can get them. Shooting for the top. Well I will only be taking 2 classes in the spring semester.  I have come to realize that ....drumroll please.....I am not as young as I used to be and with a family, there must be breaks in between from as fulltime schedule. Also with my other responsibilities, 2 classes are much easier to handle, even three but not 4 and higher. Too much with working in between and a family equals BURN-OUT.  NO MORE BURN OUT PLEASE!  Besides I'm sure my family would appreciate a happier, kinder, gentler me......

OKAY....NO MORE FRUSTRATED, ANGRY, OVERWHELMED MOMMY AND WIFE......I love them too much and they r important too. My 6 yr old will never be 6 again.  I don't want to miss any of that. I love my family and want it to work for all of us collectively.  I don't always have the support from DH but I also won't let him stop me either.  Alright I pray that everyone have a blessed holiday and restful, well deserved break.  Don't rush it....don't do anything of u don't have to......just do it later.....HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL IF I DON'T UPDATE AGAIN IN 2011.

HAS ANYONE SEEN MY VACATION AROUND HERE????

Not sure what is going on but I have been ready to finish the semester and get into real vacation mode..... Why you ask?  Well, I just want to get a good nap.  Nothing fancy just some sleep without all of the associated stress and anxiety of what I need to do next.  Major responsibilities of a household and family in conjunction with school are not easy to contend with unless there is a break in sight.  I decided to make a major change in what I will be doing leading up to med school app season for 2013/2014.   So glad to see the end of the semester near.  I am doing fine, just need to catch up a few assignments.  Next semester I will be busy until the beginning of August.  Wow.... But it is worth it.  I will reveal the rest of my plan for shadowing, direct patient interaction.  Getting prepared to take G-chem, A&P and Micro in the spring.  Why A&P you ask?  Well it is a requirement for my plan for direct patient interaction that starts in the fall.  It can be very daunting to not have any patient interaction until 3rd and 4th year rotations.  That's why I am so excited about my plan.  Stay tuned the reveal is soon to come......

Good Times: Keeping Your Head Above Water, Making a Wave When You Can!!!

Well the title says it all.  Remember Good Times? That sitcom from the 70's.  It was about a poor black family that faced many adversities while struggling to maintain a normal life in the Ghetto.  The funniest thing is that life is just that way.  While learning to pace myself, and keep from having anxiety   over small things, I have made some correlations to this reality.  While studying and overcoming setbacks, financial, household, parenting, marriage, etc. you will encounter times when you need to really persevere.  I have learned in this race, it is either do or die, pass or fail, flex your muscles or be taken down.  God is really my only provider and strength in this journey.  An he reminds me when I am preparing for an exam or when I am just covering tons of material because maybe I'm behind in my reading (which is most of the time).  The word are simple: CAST ALL OF YOUR CARES UPON ME BECAUSE I CARE FOR YOU....(1st peter; 5:7) And finally my favorite scripture: He makes my feet as hinds feet and sets me on my high places. (psalms 18:33)

MASTERING YOUR COMMITMENTS - FULL-TIME WORK AND SCHOOL!!!

Okay so I had to really prioritize my commitments....My goals are to complete my prereqs for Med School and earn money if possible along the way.  Here is the full-time job update......HAD TO LET IT GO......COMPLETELY EXHAUSTED AND WAS BEGINNING TO DEVELOP ANXIETY.  After careful consideration of the EXTREMELY BUSY RECRUITING CONTRACT that I was on.  I realized that I am better suited for a contract role that has breaks in between. i.e. - a 3 month assignment and pause to get another one.  I can hardly articulate what I want to say right now without the thoughts of EXTREME STRESS creeping on my mind.  PHEEEEWWWWW!!!!  Folks I was actually suffering anxiety attacks because of the (recaptured slave) mentality of the team that I was working with.  NEVER AGAIN...  I will work hard on my goals and God will supply our needs as he always does by faith.....  Right now school is the main career until a less stressful option appears.....  I will not be defeated.  I HAVE THE VICTORY, AND AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR THROUGH JESUS CHRIST......

Strengthen the Weakest link - I.D.E.N.T.I.F.Y THE ROOT CAUSE

I am so glad that God has allowed me to identify the weakest link in my journey.  MATH!!!   When I was a child I used to love math until one day my growth was stunted by a negative statement or blow from a teacher of all people.

How many times have we been scarred in life and had no idea where the scar came from, when it originated or when the scar tissue formed at all.  Well, while doing some soul searching as I always do.  I was able to identify the weakest link in the pursuit of Med School acceptance.

Math problems have always caused me to cringe and feel immediate fear and anxiety because that little voice of discouragement that would creep back into my hearing.  Well being a Pastor's daughter, I decided to silence that hindering voice by confronting the areas that caused the most pain.  I have prayed and am led to do more math classes to combat those feelings of vulnerability and anxiety that has plagued my life for so long.  So now I have added another algebra class to my schedule this term.  When I do the 2nd half of (algebra based physics and G-chem) in the spring, I will not clam up like the first time.  I have learned that some of the things that you hated to do, you now rely on to make it to the next level.  Thank God for being on my side.  I am determined to make it....I'm praying for all of us to make it...

FALL 2011 - Excited and Ready!!!!!

Hi all,
Guess what..... I am soooo ready to take the plunge into Fall 2011 classes. 

• Get financial aid in place - check
• Register for classes - check
• Order books - check
• Excited about my progress - check
• Grateful to the Lord for his Mercy and Love during this journey - DOUBLE CHECK.....

Jobs update - God has blessed us again!!!! My husband and I have both started working.... Now I am in another league.  "The I work fulltime and am a fullltime student" league.  Folks I think that the key is to take 1 (one) science class (yep that's right) at a time when you are working fulltime.  It is better to do well than rush all the pre-reqs and do poorly.  I think I have the right concept in my mind now.

Well the summer is over and I am just putting the last few touches on getting my 5 (soon to be 6) year old's supplies in place.  That's right the dreaded supplies list.  WHAT IN THE WORLD IS A BOOK SOCK ANYWAY???? when I was little we called it a BROWN PAPER BOOK COVER.  I hated the one's that people bought from the store.  I could never get the folds to line up properly when covering the book.  I was secretly jealous of others that did it really well.  It was as if everyone else could do it but me .  It really needed instructions that began with (TAKE YOUR TIME AND YOU CAN DO IT).  This is how I feel about Pre-med prereq's for the "NON-TRADITIONAL WORKING OR UNEMPLOYEDM MARRIED OR SINGLE PARENT).  Our lives are so different. 

Well I am not working in the lab or anything medically oriented.  I am working in corporate america.  Yep you gotta do what you gotta do to feed your family.  In due season God will give me that research position that I desire.  (maybe I really don't).  Anyway, my true desire is to get through all of the sciences that I will be taking and take the MCAT asap after that.

To think that I was actually going to apply to 2013. That has now changed to 2014 or whenever God will bless me to finish the preliminaries (sciences - MCAT - LOR's etc.)  Sometimes I feel like a secret premed student TRAPPED IN CORPORATE AMERICA..... No one knows, No one there understands my true desire to be a physician,  No one would probably really be able to relate if told anyway.  That's why I am grateful for other NON-Trad friends that share the same DREAM.....Dream on future Doctors...... We will all make it with perseverance....

CAN YOU SAY "A" IN PHYSICS AND A "B" IN CHEMISTRY???? - I CAN...

PART ONE - PREREQS - CHEMISTRY AND PHYSICS DONE - FOR SUMMER 2011!
HALLELUJAH TO GOD....I am soooo glad to have a "B" in summer accelerated Chemistry class  and an "A" in Physics 1 for summer 2011.  Whoooo Hooooo.....this was a very challenging but God has done it again for me.  His Daughter....

I am just ecstatic.  I can't even begin to explain the kind of obstacles that I encountered this past semester.  From having to double up on classes and take an extension to get things done.  Wheeewww.... glad that is over with.  Through it all, I can truly say that the Lord has been my entire strength and help in this trial of faith X 2.....One of my favorite scriptures are: "he maketh my feet like hinds feet, and set me on my high places"  Psalm 18:33.  Well until next time...  I'm trying to finish some chicken alfredo because it is my 9th wedding anniversary today...Will update real soon....

Finally Back to the Business of getting things Done...SUMMER CLASSES ARE HERE!!!!!

Whoever said that SUMMER CLASSES ARE FUN IS CRAZY.  Anyway we are picking away at summer sciences.  I am so glad that they are almost over.  This has been by far the most trying semester (that I am actually focused and determined without constant distraction) to date.  I had to pray more this semester and study harder than ever.  Here is the line up:

1. husband laid off
2. i'm unemployed
3. major source of income ---gone
4. husband started new job in NYC---PRAYER STILL WORKS...
5. threat of eviction----gone thank God
6. need money for commuting costs
7. need money to keep going for now
8. need more midterm and final review time.
9. ACTUALLY COMPREHENDING IN THE FACE OF ADVERSITY, INSTEAD OF MEMORIZATION AND THE ABILITY TO PERSEVERE THROUGH TRIALS.....PRICELESS!!!!!

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Delayed but for the best....

Hi All,I'm back.  Well here is an update.  NEVER TAKE ACCELERATED SCIENCES IF YOU CAN HELP IT.  Okay just had to vent there for a minute.  When I took these classes, I figured oh well it will be great to get things over with sooner (NOT)!!!! Take a lesson from me DONT DO IT.  All science classes require the full semester to complete.  I am just grateful to God for getting me through them.

Also I have extended 2 of my classes until the end of June to complete them with high grades.  Anyway, it will work out for the best.  I only need to complete the 2nd half of physics accelerated and then I'm done with accelerated sciences of any sort.  I know that others do it every summer but anything shy of 12 weeks is just a DEATH TRAP.  But I digress.

The main reason for this sentiment is because I didn't take into consideration how many HINDERANCES CAN PRESENT THEMSELVES WHEN YOU ARE in desperate need of additional study time.  Severe financial trials don't help either.  When I endeavored to complete all the pre-med prereq's, the original plan was to GO TO SCHOOL ONLY.  Not an option in this market.  My husband was always hassling me about money from the beginning, but I would reassure him that it would be worth it in the long run to let me just finish this last year and we can move forward from there.  However, that is a fairy-tale adventure.  As I now see that it is not possible to do it without two incomes in my household.

I guess it is not a bad idea to have my own money again.  After all I wont have to ASK FOR EVERYTHING EITHER.  Also, I can save money toward med school.  I have been thinking about a few options for med school.  Inclusive of the CARIBBEAN....YES FOLKS I SAID IT.  I have a few friends who are either in their 1-2 years or doing clinical or graduated or in residency now.  I really like the flexibility of a few things that they offer.  I will go more into detail about that later.  Anyway, I will be back in the library all summer long.  I will try to squeeze in a trip to DISNEY LAND FOR MY 5YR OLD THIS SUMMER.  Can't kill yourself must gage your progress and prevent stress as much as possible.

Flexibility prevents Exam Rush!!!!

Wow it been 2 weeks since I updated.  Well, I am plugging away at it all.  I have not taken my midterms yet...Huh  yep they came and went.  So I notified 2 of my professors that I needed more time to prepare (since they are 30% of the grade) HELLLOOOOO, I want to put my best effort forward.  Well thank God for flexibility because I would never have made it this far.  I am unfortunately going to need to reread all the chapters to review because I need to refresh it all...

Hopefully it wont be too bad.  Anyway I applied for a few positions in the lab and one at a a university teaching one of their allied health clinical lab science classes. Phlebotomy and Specimen accessioning.  I am praying that I get the job.  Really need some money to stay on track.  Anyway I have no worries.  God has never let us down.  The bible says," I have never seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging for bread".  I am a firm believer in Christ and his word.

God has shown me so much in life since I have been a believer.  Especially, the art of perseverance.  sure I have had some struggles and some very hard times.  But that is the beauty of it all.  He is always there to help in the storm...Also, I believe that all of this will help build character as I endeavor to become a physician.  There will be some very hard roads up ahead, but with faith and perseverance, I will make it.

I have heard some really tough stories of physicians that had to endure far more than I have while in medical school.  through it all, they made it through with the help of the Lord.

Chemistry Catch up Count Down Time!!!

Today I am focusing all of my efforts on Chemistry and trying to catch up  on the last missing assignment.  Wow did not know that sleep depravation would hinder my next week soooo badly.  I had  a problem with sleeping 1.5 weeks ago and I am really just getting back into the groove after several bouts of mental and physical fatigue.  Even though I come to the library every night and get some work done no matter how little or much.  


The best thing is that I try to keep going and picking away at it even in times of direst.  Also I had to take 1.5 days off from studying to just sleep and unwind.  I guess being severely anemic doesn't help either.  I was having severe bouts of anemia and feeling very fatigued and unable to accomplish anything.  I mean my whole body was very weak and shaky.  Apparently anemia can make you dehydrated as well.  Well I corrected all that thank the Lord and it's onto better horizons.  


Notified my Chemistry professor that I will take the midterm later than scheduled.  I need additional time to study.  Some of the chapters are sooooo long and I need to re-read it all and really zero in on key areas that will be addressed.  My physics class assignments will be back in swing tomorrow after church and Monday.  I really wish that I could study at home too. It is just a shame that the number of distractions are so many that the library seems to be my only STUDY OASIS....

Yaaayy!!!! Got an 'A' on the first two assignments in Physics...

I am so blessed and encouraged to keep going.  This week I got my grades for the first two physics assignments.  Got 2 "A's"...Hip Hip Horaaayyy.... I really worked hard on comprehending the information.  I really am also grateful for some of the awesome advice that I received on the blogs of other physicians and med students on what else,  "study tips", pacing yourself, lightening the load for adults with families, etc.  It has really been priceless.  It matters  when you can get to the library too away from distractions and actually study.  I try to get there in the early evenings and stay until about midnight or later.  

It's not always easy to stay focused and motivated when life is still going on in spite of school and the need to finish.  But I am determined to be successful.  My goals will happen in time.  I have learned to take it one goal at a time.  This journey is a long one and I am not going to rush it.  The best bit of advice that I have gotten is not to overload yourself but to take it slow and do well on every level.  Overloading classes causes rapid burnout due to stress and anxiety.  I have also learned that it is better to minimize stress and anxiety where you can.    Pacing yourself has a lot to do with knowing how much you can actually handle.  When I would see others take on 18-24 credits of pure sciences, I would think oh boy they are really smart.  Maybe some are but that was not a smart thing to do.  Anyone can get overwhelmed.  The best way to study for things that are not familiar is to practice them constantly.  The more repetitious, the better it will be committed to memory.  


Obviously science is not a simple thing to accomplish but it can be done,  When people would say to me in high school or college that I would never be a physician, I would think to myself that if it was that difficult there would not be as many doctors in the world.  Anything can be done if you put your mind to it.


When I was in high school, my guidance counselor (the wife of a very famous principal that was featured in a movie about impoverished, crack addicted and troubled high school students ironically) said to me that I will never be a doctor and that I needed to choose to do something else in life.  One day I completed my college applications and asked why I did not hear anything from the colleges I applied to.  Her response was, " I never mailed them off for you".  I realized then that you must believe in yourself even if no one else does.  And it is that self determination that has brought me this far in life.  

Catching up is getting better with diligence!!!

Well I'm back in progress.... Whooooo that nasty bronchitis was a mess....so glad I'm finally feeling better.  I was sooo weak for a while though.  Anyway Physics and Chemistry are back in effect and moving strong.  Well sort of.  I am diligently working on a few concepts that allow me to comprehend more info and commit to memory as much as I can based on the reading material.  Also for I'm paying attention to things more this semester as I read and I thank God for a change in focus, alertness and comprehension....

I have learned to block out distractions at home and elsewhere.   The Library has been an absolute blessing and a home away from home....Cannot explain the pleasure of being able to get work done without distractions.  It makes a real difference when you can read and stay focused.  I'm just expecting great grades for every class.  Diligence makes the difference.  I study better at nite.  I'm really not a morning person but can stay up all nite to read and study.  I really enjoy night hours and the stillness when everyone is sleeping.  Seems so natural.

My chemistry professor is a mess...She is a little anal and really sort of demands a little too much.  It's a little crazy but she has this thing where she give .25, .5, and whole credit for assignments.  I don't know,  go figure....as long as I keep plugging away I'm expecting a good grade, especially when there are only two of us left in the class.....yep you read it right 2 of us left in the class....I'ts a little strange but what do I care.  Anyway, I turned in a few assignments and she actually critiqued every piece of it.  I thought that just having the answers correct meant more than anything....Oh well maybe it's me but some of them can demand so much....

The physics book we are using seems so inferior.  It really is like elementary reading.  I'm not sure if that is the most annoying part or the fact that the book itself has so much rambling in it that I skip most of that and get right down to the business of actual physics.  I was warned of some of the errors in the book and silliness.  The friend that I bought the book from took the class before me and said that it is not a good book...He actually bought other books to accommodate this one and learn more.  I just hope that I am not being short changed in the learning process because of this book.   I really do need physics for the MCAT and that's ALLLLLL....Medical School will not reflect on any of this science at all.  In-fact, during the basic science stage (first 2 years) the basic sciences do not include physics but advanced biochemistry and other medically related biomedical sciences.  Not basic physics...  Here is a list of typical 1st and 2nd year basic medical school sciences -

Typical Schedule for Basic Sciences:

First Trimester CODE DESCRIPTION LEC. HRS LAB. HRS TUTORIAL TOTAL CREDITS BMS100 Patient, Doctor and Community 20 10 30 02 BMS101 Gross Anatomy / Embryology 107 110 50 267 17 BMS102 Histology /Cell Biology 60 50 40 150 10 TOTAL 29

Second Trimester CODE DESCRIPTION LEC. HRS LAB. HRS TUTORIAL TOTAL CREDITS BMS201 Human Physiology 105 25 20 150 10 BMS202 Biochemistry /Medical Genetics 210 10 20 240 15 BMS203 Behavioral Sciences 120 30 150 09 TOTAL 34

Third Trimester CODE DESCRIPTION LEC. HRS LAB. HRS TUTORIAL TOTAL CREDITS BMS301 Neurosciences 105 35 10 150 09 BMS302 General Pathology 135 15 150 11 BMS303 Microbiology / Immunology 190 25 10 225 12 TOTAL 32

Fourth Trimester CODE DESCRIPTION LEC.HRS LAB.HRS TUTORIAL TOTAL CREDITS BMS304 Medical Jurisprudence 40 05 45 04 BMS401 Systemic Pathology 125 15 10 150 11 BMS402 Pharmacology 135 15 150 12 TOTAL 27

Fifth Trimester CODE DESCRIPTION LEC.HRS LAB.HRS TUTORIAL TOTAL CREDITS BMS403 Physical Diagnosis 90 75 165 10 BMS501 Introduction to Clinical Medicine 110 40 150 17 BMS502 * USMLE Step I Review 130 30 160 10 TOTAL 37

Back in Class and Loving It.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This feels natural and I am so ready to continue this semester.  I am doing everything possible to stay on track.  All was well except for this terrible bout of bronchitis the past two weeks.  My 5yr old was sick first and now me.  Well I am just grateful that I didn't get the full blast of strep throat and sinusitis and bronchitis like he did.  And all at once.  But believe me my chest was on fire for a few days.....whooo glad that part is over.

Never the less.  I will be moving forward this week by the grace of God.  I am behind in a few written and reading assignments in physics and chemistry. All is well though.  I have been really trying to solidify my math for physics and chemistry skills.  Sometimes it all looks like pure gibberish.  But I keep plugging away and not paralyzed in fear of "math failure".  After all it is only math right?...huh?

Thank God my husband is becoming more supportive of me going to school and finishing up these dreaded pre-reqs.  I'm sure that everyone would like to bypass this stage of preparation.   I believe that this only solidifies your science skills and knowledge.  I have come to have a great appreciation of things that I have come to master in science by sheer repetition.  The ability to recall concepts in your mind and make examples of them makes all the difference in learning.  My concept of learning is comprehension not memorization. Don't get me wrong, some people are great at memorizing.  I just believe that it has it's limits. If you are able to learn a concept then you will automatically commit it to memory.  Comprehension is better than memorization.  Less stress on the mind is less stress on my time and body.

Spring Course Count Down.....School is just around the corner......

Hi all,
I am patiently anticipating doing a great job this semester.  With a renewed determination.  I can hardly wait to get going.  THIS IS YOUR LIIIIFFFEE......Remember that show from the 50's or 60's (can't remember).  I used to be a person that had low self esteem and a bunch of insecurities.....ALL GONE....Praise the Lord....Just because of his grace and nothing more.  No work of my own.  


When I was younger, I used to think that Medical Education and the process leading up to med school was a long tedious one.  This at first seemed daunting.  But as an adult, I am glad that it 
is not a quick process because I can gage my progress with milestones along the way. And as an adult with real life professional experiences, I have so much more to offer as opposed to someone fresh out of college.  I think the kind of determination that is required is solidified along the way as you continue on this process to MD and beyond. 

2 Weeks away from Spring 2011 classes

2 more weeks and back to studying.  I'll admit that I feel the most empowered to study when I'm at the library though.  I have found that being in an environment conducive of studying feels natural.  I read something interesting on mommd.com regarding the decision to stay on campus a few days a week in med school and a few days a week at home.  I think it is a great idea.  There was a med student who was a wife and a mom.  She saw that the time she required to study in med school was limited at home so she was smart enough to take extra loans to pay for on-campus housing that she used 4-5 days a week.  Let's just be frank....MED SCHOOL IS NOT A JOKE.  Study time required is enormous....It's been said that the work its self is not hard but the sheer volume is what makes it challenging.  I can only imagine that coupled with the fact that they are advanced science concepts that require more uninterrupted concentration.  Given my current situation...SOUNDS LIKE A DEAL FOR ME.....INFACT, I LOVE IT....  The thing that makes school hard as an mom and wife is the NEVER ENDING RESPONSIBILITY......I also know that anyone serious can do well if they have adequate time to study and less outside pressure and stress.  


 I really enjoy my quiet time at the library because it helps me focus on me and restrategize when necessary.  I have learned a few things about myself last year.  I require additional time to study for things that may take longer to comprehend or things that are new or may present challenges... This may require more planning.

Okay...Time for a Science talk...Biology and G-Chem or Physics and Organic-Chem

I believe that taking G-Chem and Physics works better and Bio and O-Chem.  It has been debated whether Bio and G-Chem have a more natural flow....My experience with physics seems more closely knit to GChem as opposed to GChem and Bio.  That's just my humble opinion.  I am really working on math weaknesses right now.  I have felt crippled at times by math in the past.

All I remember is that growing up, I really enjoyed math and one day a teacher (the great discouragers) really made me fearful of math by discouragement.  I don't know it's crazy.  Anyway I am determined to make it my strength as opposed to a weakness.  I am in absolute love with biochemistry and Biology.  But Biochemistry makes me feel empowered ( I secretly enjoy analytical things).  I love to think on the functionality and complex flow of metabolic pathways....AWESOME.....


Biochem makes me want to do academic medicine one day.  Or if I could just teach a class at the undergrad or grad level that would be great.  I think that's why I enjoyed software development so much.  It was always interesting because of the analytical skill that is required to compile code and write software programs...Still love it today even though I am pursuing medicine.  I NEED CONSTANT INTELLECTUAL STIMULATION TO STAY INTERESTED.......HELP IS THAT ADD?????

New Motivation to complete Med Schoool Prereq's in 2011

Well 2011 is finally here..... My expectation are real.  I am soooooo excited about what this year has in store..I wil be much further along this year....I needed to learn how to minimize stress and anxiety in 2010.  I figured out what my hinderances were.  


Hinderances can do alot of harm to your progress.  They can work on your self esteem and injure your hope..... I have found that they come in the form of people most of the time.  Better to shed off the dream killers and go forward.  It is better be with people of like mindedness.  


Most people don't understand the passion associated with being a doctor or going back to school at the age of 40plus to get into Medical School.  Many people see the hard work and dedication and think, that it's not worth it or it is too expensive or it is too late.  But infact, the sacrifice is well worth it.  I feel like it is an amazing time and I am privileged to be apart of this time.  Can't relive the last 20 years but I can make the next 20 better and accomplish more.


I was a person that had many obstacles to overcome when I was younger and yet God made it possible to accomplish my greatest goal of becoming a doctor.  Well Gotta take my son to school now....I promise to write more later.  I really like blogging my thoughts..